True story- as I prepared my morning to head off to work and run a million errands to prepare for my 40th party, I gathered all my belongings around 8am and headed out the door...I unlock both deadbolts and turn my doorknob-well, it would not open! I look through the peephole thinking it was a joke and someone was holding the door shut! As I continue to fight with this door I called maintenance for help! He talked me through how to open this door with a screwdriver-it opened, but immediately shut again!! I couldn't open it again! At this moment of frustration, God spoke "stop trying to open doors that I have shut!!" I took a deep breath and realized the doors God has shut in my life and I kept trying to pry open with a screwdriver!! I truly am blessed to have realized what God was visualizing for me- He is showing me lately LOUD & CLEAR what I'm supposed to continue doing in my life! Blessed! *thank you for showing me, Father, not to try to pry open a door You have already shut in my life! Thank you! ** note- after I realized this ten minutes later I was able to open the door easily! Go figure! ❤️
Brokeness--Yes, even me, broken. Why does the world look and see that nothing can possibly go wrong in my life—my outer cover is strong, hard, and beautiful yet inside I’m broken. Feel it daily. Feel my heart bleeding and yearning for God’s Love, joy, and peace! He knows how I yearn for this and it hurts to even become vulnerable again. Please Father, take this burden and refuel me. I need a sense of being, a sense of purpose! I am drawn to those things that appease my soul & spirit. Bring those things to me, complete me, Father. There’s a work that needs to be done. So use me! I need YOU! I need for you to be so LOUD and CLEAR. I know you love me like no man could. Unconditionally! I know you have a special gift for me, even in my crookedness. Please make my crooked ways straight TODAY! I have nothing in my tank. I need YOU to fill it, with PURE fuel. PURE love, PURE joy, PURE peace! Only you can provide that fuel for me. Forgive all my sins and all inequities. I don’t like that I’m not as pure as you need me to be, but I want to be. Father, order my steps- allow me to l live life to the fullest of ALL RICHES! Of all kinds! Allow me to see what only YOU have for me. I’m not dreaming- I know it’s out there for me! Let me see it TANGIBLY. Thank you Father, I love you! Xox Your Daughter!
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