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Sitting in my car before service at TPHND and I have so much to be grateful for. And Lord, you know the hurts of my heart! You know the desires. I’m a little hurt and I need your inner peace and healing. I have to stand back, yet want to intervene. Please take charge. Please show us what is right, what is truly our destiny. I don’t want to fail You! I have wanted to remain pure and have failed. Please renew a right spirit within me. I need your utmost strength in all my weaknesses. So much in the unknown- please make visual and clear! Use me to care and move others into their destiny! Give me the pure discernment to know the difference. I pray for the hurting and confused- Please lift the veil, please give inner peace to those that are trying not to fail you. We only to please you, Father. You have been my strength, I praise you Father and know you have an awesome gift for me. I WILL WAIT! Allow me the strength to wait on YOU! it’s not always easy- Please Help! Thank you Lord. Amen. –Your Daughter. **he gave me this word….”YOU CANNOT RUSH WHAT NEEDS TO GROW!”
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So this morning I woke at 3:16am with an urgency to pray! Saw a vision of a “shadow of a woman wailing and travailing” I heard her crying clearly! And although it was just a shadow of the woman, God has put in my spirit that, the woman represented Israel- crying at the stones being thrown to her (rockets). The hurts, the pains, the anguish is tormenting my spirit (since my return 6/1/14). He also said, “Samaria”, after looking up the geographics- I realized it’s the West Bank region. Amazing that was given to me all before I fell back asleep at 4am. Then continued to speak and remind me of time I woke (3:16am) “for God so loved the world that He gave is only begotten Son!” and I heard him say it in FIRST PERSON! And said, “only through My Son will people prosper!” And I understood. I am just in awe as these things are revealed to me and I really have no understanding of what is going on overseas, I am a blessed child for being able to witness the torment of the Holy Land. I hate “hate”. And returning home last month only filled me with a new enriched love for people—unprecedented, unconditional and non-comprehendible love! God is allowing me to have a piece of His ultimate compassion—I love it!!
. Foundation, Father, is what I’ve learned to value. I’ve learned to wait on Your Word, Pray for what I am seeking and walk in Faith! This three month journey has blessed me spiritually, intellectually, emotionally, and physically. Father, we don’t always do things perfectly and we ask forgiveness—but, show us purpose, show us unconditional love, show us connection with You conquers all! There is no GREATER LOVE! I’ve longed, searched, and desired the very love you have instilled in me. Now, Father, I ask for it all to be reciprocated in time! Yes, Father, YOU KNOW ALL—you’ve told me this! Please continue to work in our lives for Your purpose and not our own agendas. Please remove us and fill us with more of YOU! I love you, Father and fully trust that you will show purpose soon! And even give us our hearts desires in the process. You are awesome and I forever give you ALL the praise—Always & forever! .
Brokeness--Yes, even me, broken. Why does the world look and see that nothing can possibly go wrong in my life—my outer cover is strong, hard, and beautiful yet inside I’m broken. Feel it daily. Feel my heart bleeding and yearning for God’s Love, joy, and peace! He knows how I yearn for this and it hurts to even become vulnerable again. Please Father, take this burden and refuel me. I need a sense of being, a sense of purpose! I am drawn to those things that appease my soul & spirit. Bring those things to me, complete me, Father. There’s a work that needs to be done. So use me! I need YOU! I need for you to be so LOUD and CLEAR. I know you love me like no man could. Unconditionally! I know you have a special gift for me, even in my crookedness. Please make my crooked ways straight TODAY! I have nothing in my tank. I need YOU to fill it, with PURE fuel. PURE love, PURE joy, PURE peace! Only you can provide that fuel for me. Forgive all my sins and all inequities. I don’t like that I’m not as pure as you need me to be, but I want to be. Father, order my steps- allow me to l live life to the fullest of ALL RICHES! Of all kinds! Allow me to see what only YOU have for me. I’m not dreaming- I know it’s out there for me! Let me see it TANGIBLY. Thank you Father, I love you! Xox Your Daughter!
My plan is to accomplish your will, I just need Your guidance every step. It’s scary in this world to walk blindly. But it’s time to be bold and take up that rod and step forward. There’s none other like you, Father. I want to continue walking with you. Who knows where You’ll ever lead me, but I don’t want to my writings known when I’m long gone! It’s special to be in your Almighty presence. I seek your face for my plan and purpose. “Guide ME!”, I cry. No more blindness in these eyes, allow me to see the gifts and blessings you have for me! I no longer worship the things of this world, nor do I desire to be part of it all. I want You! No man, no other to direct my path! I want the narrow- I want Your Hand, it’s today, NOW that I expect your blessings, not yesterday, not tomorrow, Father but NOW! I want to be Yours. I’ve given my mind, body and soul to You! It’s NOW, I expect – you are in me Father and let it be known! No more games, but Your guidance is all I seek. Touch me, Father, breathe upon me a fresh anointing to follow through with your plan for my life. BREATHE ON ME FATHER! Cover me every day I move forward- I may not be a preacher, I may not be famous, but now Father being in your presence is what I long for and seek—You!
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